Tuesday, March 30, 2010
How Do You Solve A Problem Like ... !?
I had been setting myself up for disappointment all day long. I've never wanted a role so badly, never felt so right in a character before. So I knew that if I didn't get it, the let-down would be painful. And now, the Sound of Music cast list comes out, and ... I can't even believe it, even now, after having two hours to celebrate. I get to play one of my top dream roles ever. I'm Maria. It blows my mind that these songs I've been singing since I was six years old are going to belong to me. It makes me feel giddy, whereas this morning I just felt sick because I was trying to convince myself that I wouldn't get the part, and that I would handle that with grace and dignity.
I tell you, there was nothing dignified about me when I saw my name there, in that spot where I feared it wouldn't be.